i dont like! 

sigh.

w-h-y

i dun feel too good. ):

i realised i've left this blog dusty & alone for awhile now.. life's been pretty good & so do driving. haha.
kinda love driving when my uncle is in a ultra good mood which i have been experiencing for most of d time! yayness :D

yup, went for a interview today.. wish i dun get in somehow dunno why. i'd rather work for NETS. sounds better rite.. better den kline. lols.. e pple there are pretty scary n i dun feel too good abt it. though the location's not tt bad la.. ah im full from my 10pm dinner still. kill me. went to makan at mustafa nearby.. its good la! but sad case tt alot of good restaurants get neglected lo.. ((:

why am i soooo emo today?
asssshit. haiz
driving lesson today wasnt good, and im going to be taught by my uncle soon.
oh how i dread it now~

hate the feeling of not being appreciated?

do my presence bring comfort to u? sigh.

things get harder when u realise u start to put in alot of effort in a relationship.. and how much the person mean to u deep down in ur heart.
iwanttodoeverythingtomakeufeelbetter.

iloveeuu, tons. 




happiness is something in which you should obtain urself, and not what others bring to you

been having alot of weird dreams lately.. kinda weird.
sigh.
i need a job soon! been busy sending resumes n all.. 
feelin moody these days. jus wish it will go away ):
too sian

t o o t i r e d. n e e d s l e ep

he admitted even to grace tt he left me hanging there, din hurt me in anyway tho.
-_-'' thanks hor, din hurt me ?

i know and i want to let everything end myself.. but how to do it? sucks badly.
i miss you but what can i do? i dunno anything, but only to stop loving you.
i'm trying everyday.

JJ Lin - 你要的不是我

怎么能忘 时间多长
你快乐吗 想代替你回答
你知道吗 走了好远
我才能去面对
这份牵挂 沉默伤悲

你要的不是我
心碎的失去轮廓
曾经给你的感动
只是情绪的波动
能给的不是我
放任你沉溺自由
掩饰不了我的笨拙
就连说话都会颤抖
我被遗忘在
你遗忘的角落
我被遗忘在 你遗忘的角落

(2:53 PM) everthing good i: wat particular person that is so detestful? 
(2:53 PM) everthing good i: ask the person to come and see me and explain herself
(2:53 PM) everthing good i: or himself

everthing good i:<td style="FONT-FAMILY: "Arial""> </td>        how come he is still around?! lol... tot he left for somewhere
<tr></tr><th> </th> everthing good i:<td style="FONT-FAMILY: "Arial""> </td>        ask him dont so po-mah can
<tr></tr><th> </th> everthing good i:<td style="FONT-FAMILY: "Arial""> </td>        like girl like tat 
<tr></tr><th> </th> everthing good i:<td style="FONT-FAMILY: "Arial""> </td>        you  make up his mind... if not u make it up for him la
<tr></tr><th> </th> everthing good i:<td style="FONT-FAMILY: "Arial""> </td>       yupz... i give u all my support to get him to decide 
<tr></tr><th> </th>  everthing good i:<td style="FONT-FAMILY: "Arial""> </td>        u got all my support from auzzie man

see even a fren can be way so nice. omg. why cant YOU. 

read frm E's blog n she refer W as 'arsehole'.. i wish i could be like her n realli mebe hate him forever? she made some fierce n harshh comments which i wish i could do tt too? sigh.
if only im not tt weak and i dun think my life would be tt bad now.. life's messy. 

if only i can put a stop to it. if only.
trying to stay strong everyday, and y din i see e results still? 
it sucks, argh!


thanks j anyways, if u happen to read it.

 

tell myself for 100,0000000000000th times to go MIA and yet i keep failing. horrible can!

i feel really depressed still. omg. what should i do!
the pain is still there. how. very painful.
want to see u badly, but so what? u dun bother. why. ahhhhhhhhhh!


kill me la! someone.

on a lighter note, im learning driving on sun! hopefully :D




maybe im not in ur mind nor heart, anymore. AHHHHHHHHHHH

爱你又如何？

想看你眼睛　你却给我背影
就像满天星　都跌进大海里　
我被放逐的心　又要往哪里去

不能去怪谁 顶多只能掉眼泪
如果问原因　可能更承受不起　
我就这样离去　我又很难平静
从你的泪滴
我找到被爱过的证据
有冲动想哭泣　
只好静静抱你



i know i have to let everything go.. when can i really force myself to let go?
dun pick up ur call, dun reply ur sms, dun go out with u.. i cant do all those! :(

will u even bother if i will to go MIA? will u?


pretty cool vid. 2 late hk superstar. realli like the 2 songs! watch it :D

i feel really horrible now..
why did u have to let go of my hand after crossing the road? dun i mean anything to u now?? sigh.
makes me wonder even more, shd i even take up e degree in mass comm now... since w is there.. even now, my heart couldnt take the stress.. wonder would it be worse later on..n when we fly to US to study.. im scared tt my heart cant take it anymore.. im so lost..

i really thought i can have a fun day todaY.. really enjoyed L movie with *you alott.. very funny.. but ur* actions made me really down..
why, why m i being treated like this n i cant seem to move on? i still m veri in love with the person i shdnt be.. =(


i wish my heart was dead at times...



memoriesofueverywhere~
♥ iloveyousomuchthatithurts.


=(

pretty troubled for this few weeks coz of many stuffs..

one of them is my course.. seriously, i still can't decide if i should take the degree in mass comm back or change to a diff sch n diff course, psycho with double major in marketing.. i dun htink im creative enuff to do marketing & i have no basics for psycho tho..
but im really interested in psycho, but if i really have to do that line, i gotta study till masters to be able to have a decent job out there bah.. kinda tough.. and not much job choices too..n dun even know if after masters can i get a job?

well, for mass comm, degree would do me just fine.. save $$ tooo. but still i would be in e same sch, same class with w, and he is someone where i cant confirm my status with.. kinda dangerous from what many pple had advised me.. afraid my heart cant take e blow blabla.. sigh. what the hell should i do? tho dis sch im more familiar with and pple like him around so tt i wun feel that bad lah.. 

met him yest.. thot i could get an ans from him.. but i had no opportunity to ask him anything at all.. he keeps saying no hurry what, stress for what.. but still, he's registering dis sat.. n i wish to have someone close in d class too lor.. or not i feel super lost! sigh -.- thats what made me so worried abt psycho.. new sch.. new pple.. new course. woah! n plus can i really cope not! =(

i wish he knew lor.. m i really important to him. 
sigh



must be the clouds in my eyes♥ ♥

i wish i knew what i meant to you...
i m really in deep pain.. ily so much n i hate to lose u again.
sigh.

im not asking for anything much, but just you loving me properly.
):

我如何再挣救自己？

当重要的人和事已不再属于我的是侯。。
我知道我必须遗忘，可是到底我几时能忘了他呢？
几时我可以当作不再呼呢？？

things changes with time;
love forgotten,
trust misplaced,
hope forsaken just like that,

what stands strong through the test of time then?


beentryingtoavoidyouthewholeday,anditshorrible.
ithoughticanjustdieeeeofthepain.

imissyou,andfuckitsmiserable.holdingbackthetears..